ONLY THE ONES WHO DON’T JUDGE AND ARE HERE TO
SPREAD POSITIVITY AND NOT HATRED ARE ALLOWED.....🙏
केवल उन लोगों के लिए,
जो दूसरों के जीवन पर टिप्पणी(?🤡) नहीं करते हैं
और यहाँ सकारात्मकता प्रसार करने के लिए हैं…
घृणा नहीं..🙏
Hieeeeeeeee Yaha ane ki lie dhanyawaaaadddd🥺😌…toh intro wale blog me I just gave a glimpse k mai yaha kya krne wali hu... but usse pehle kya ho raha hai wo jaanlo aap sab…
I am Ski🌃✨(pronounced as sky I write it as ski…it’s the meaning of my real name🤗…asli naam?👀khud dhundh lo 🤡ffadsjhfdak aur pata hai to comment mat karna idhar ..OR ELSE…..ELSE…?*evil smile*whatsapp wali dhamki…10 yEaRS Of bAd LucK🤡…RiftfDTRTDURDTRD…
ok let me start gfgfjhdsjga…)
NOTE: I’ll be listing out things one by one to aapko bhi
same problems hai to comment down at least I’ll know I’m not alone….🥺🤡andwe can come up with solutions together and be there for each other too
So quarantine me sab bol rahe hai k ‘it gave us some personal time to know ourselves more’ ‘we got private time to figure ourselves out’ lekin yaha kuch aur hi case hai bhai…💔🙂Parents k sath rehna aur privacy?they don’t go along in one line…aisa nhi k freedom nhi hai… freedom hai… you can do anything..lekin you still can’t do anything…samaj rhe ho?💔🙂😭…dfjshjhaskjdh but is chiz k bare me ab kuch kr nhi sakte…ngl often I thought to leave this house and stay alone…family wale kept on adding reasons on WHY LIVING ALONE WOULD’VE BEEN MUCH MORE BETTER💔🙂….BNDVFVDSHVJHVJ*sighs*💔🙂😭🤡
Moving out ain’t
a big deal… the only constraint is MONEY
hjdsgdjas aur money ho to bhi baadme aisi baat krne ki himmat b nhi hai… maloom
hai 2 flying chappal ayegi aur kone me baithna padega wapas reverse gear marke
to privacy
kaise milegi? pata nhi….on this journey… I’ll try to figure out this ….also is
privacy from parents important? Hope I’ll figure this out too..dekhte hai kya
hota hai….
Sube utho: me to myelf:”mai aj ye karungi …ye sab karna hai…” mom:*gye lo ye saare kaam karo and my timetable is ruined*
...aur list pr socha hua first kaam jab nhi hota hai
na…to pura aisa lagta hai k sab barbaaaaaaddddd...evrythingis ruined…ab na ho paye age ka kaam…
…but then kuch din maine mom ka kaam krne k baad apne baaki kaam continue krne ki koshish ki…but pata nhi q andar se sab barbaad ho chukka hai aisi feeling end tak thi hi aur jo b work I did satisfaction mila hi nhi….have to find a solution…
I
know what to do… I know how to do… but I’m not doing it…and then after some
time…I regret….
...man karta hai
kabi kabi k kaash khudka hi clone
bana sakti…
... at least khudko 2 kaan k niche baja k kaam to karati…I would’ve
been much more productive….sed lifeu…khudko kaise marte hai yar?kdjflkjas
...dimaag me
bahut saare ideas hai… unme potential b hai( according to the way I think) but why is it so hard to start
working???
Roz roz ki same routine se I am going nowhere and jab jab ye realize hota hai dimaag me I’m like so lost…and trusfrated jkhkjhdjkshf itna kaam krne k baad bhi I feel like I did nothing..i started getting frustrated easily and talk back to my elders and then at night I regret k aisa nhi karna chahiye tha..but idk why I have started loosing control over myself now a days..this is fckn effecting me mentally …
"...when did i started to become like the person i hate ? when did i started to change myself into someone i don't wanna be ?... "
I give life advices to many as if I don’t have a huge mental break down every 2-3 days at night and that too….I HAVE TO BE QUIET COZ THEN PARENTS WOULD GET WORRIED…
I hate this thing the most coz there's a constant urge to scream this shwit out... everything's just gfdjgfjfhjgfd
but andar rakh rakh k bhi to pile up hota hai and then random breakdown ho jaata hai and then people get worried k achanak kya ho gaya..abi to sahi thi 2 minute phle…but please break down hoga to comfort chahiye... us waqt…don’t bombard with questions k kya hua…phle shant to karalo usko…baad me interview le lena…I know you are worried but phle usse shant karalo please….A BIG REQUEST 🙏….BHAI dikh raha hai that the person is not able to utter a word sometimes and the other one keeps asking what happened…ok you are worried but give some time…I’ll speak once I’m able to…kudki saas to phle sambhal lu mar jaungi bhai…saas lene do phle bata rahi hu wait…jsafadshghjds kabi kabi kharaab b lagne lagta hai breakdown k waqt koi puch rha hai coz they are worried and I'm not able to answer...ye alag guilty feel hone lagta hai..dusro k saamne breakdown hota hai is something i hate the most..but the worst part is I'm not able to control jvbfdvbh
Ok anyways iske baareme baad me baat karenge ….back to topic…abi filhaal I want to make my life better... but jabtak I won’t change nothing is gonna change…(aisa bolte hai but aisa sahi me hota hai kya?🤡🙂 Asfhsfj anyways…continue..)coz idk what I want right now to be exact …but abi jo way me I’m living is not the thing I wanted… so this is a journey towards something that would make me better…(?)…
No one is perfect and sab k hisaab se perfect ka
meaning alag alag hota hai…so…this is my journey towards being someone
whom I would call perfect(?)…I don't know how and what will happen next
but I hope I become someone better than I’m right now coz the person I’m right
now is someone I hate ….and want to get rid of this I don’t know will I be able to
though…but I want to know how will this end…
MORE ABOUT ME: I’m an introvert
irl extrovert when I’m typing🤡🙂…hdglkshdghl… with some shit
trust issues💔🙂🤡 with
almost all the people around me. I prefer being lonely rather than exposing
myself to others due to my past experiences (sab harami log hfhjsdafjasfhga some mfs are still on my nerves hfhjsdafjasfhga spreading fake rumours about me and people fckn believed them coz people thought they are close to me hence would know more about me…djsgfsdg what did y'all got in return huh?mfs still on my nerves…if u heard anything about anyone please confirm it from their side itself before concluding any shit about them… ) with
people in real life…but sab kuch andar rakh rakh kar I got more
frustrated…ek point ata hai you can’t just keep it in…tab hoti hai thode hero
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….online friends…
(JUST MY OPINION)I think strangers that I meet online who can relate to the situation would have true empathy and understand me well without taking advantage of my situation… without judging me… rather than people I have in real life….(now iska matlab ye nhi k I hit on everyone ok? I trust my intuitions ahslkfhdakjs)
I act like I don’t care and don’t give a damn about almost all the things but somethings…maybe just some small things…effect me so much that people can’t imagine….skin problems...pimple problems(healthy habits se solve hogi aisa padha hai but pata nhi I'll try and let y'all know konsi chiz kaam ki aur konsi nhi so tumlog ha time waste nhi hoga if you wanna try anything)....I suffer from more problems too that I'll let you all know as I go on...and I need to find solutions...coz some problems are chronic too...(I'm not dying don't get scared jhsgjfdjhs)
Ok…about me is over so….what I’ll do here? On this journey I’ll share all my experiences and what I learnt from them and all the things that I did that changed my life through this journey…I won’t stop until I become a person I really want myself to be…and if anyone or maybe you are going through the same shit and can relate to them… I hope this could help…what you can do? I’ll share my problems here and you share yours too in the comments or maybe dm me on instagram (I’ll keep names anonymous if DMed so don’t worry about that) and I guess we can come up with solutions together and then we can help each other.…so hope this thing that I’m starting from today have a safe landing and don’t crash in the middle….SO LETS GET STARTED….
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