ONLY THE ONES WHO DON’T JUDGE AND ARE HERE TO SPREAD POSITIVITY AND NOT
HATRED ARE ALLOWED.....🙏
Hieeeeeeeee thank you for coming here🥺😌🙏…so in the intro blog I just gave a glimpse about what am I gonna do here but first you need to know few things which are going on right now and some things about me
I am Ski🌃✨(pronounced as sky I write it as ski…it’s the meaning of
my real name🤗…my real
name?👀
find it yourselves 🤡ffadsjhfdak and if you know already don’t comment it here..OR
ELSE…..ELSE…?*evil smile**WHATSAPP FORWARD MESSAGE THREAT* …10 yEaRS
Of bAd LucK🤡…RiftfDTRTDURDTRD…
ok let me start gfgfjhdsjga…)
NOTE: I’ll be listing out things one by one …so if you are going through
the same things..please do comment down at least I’ll know I’m not
alone….we can come up with advices and solutions for each other and be
there for each other too…🥺🤡
So during this quarantine everyone was sharing ‘how it gave us some personal time to know ourselves more’ ‘we got private time to figure ourselves out’ but this case of mine is different💔🙂…living with parents and privacy? they don’t go along in one line💔🙂🤡…it’s not like I don’t have freedom to do anything… my parents have given me freedom… you can do anything... but you still can’t do anything…getting my point?…dfjshjhaskjdh but I can’t do anything about it…ngl often I thought to leave this house and stay alone…family members kept on adding reasons on WHY LIVING ALONE WOULD’VE BEEN MUCH MORE BETTER💔🙂😭🤡….BNDVFVDSHVJHVJ*sighs*💔🙂😭🤡
Moving out ain’t a big deal… the only constraint
is MONEY hjdsgdjas and even if I had money then too I don’t
have guts to talk about living separately…like I can’t tell them I wanna
live alone… coz I know the results already..I’ll get 2 flying chappals(flip
flops?) and then had to sit in the corner
So how will I get privacy? I don’t know this right
now….on this journey… I’ll try to figure out this ….also is privacy from
parents important? Hope I’ll figure this out too… let’s see what
happens….
Waking up in the morning: me to myelf:”today I’ll this …I’ll finish up doing this work…” mom:*gives
home chores and my timetable is ruined*
...and whenever the first job in the list I make is not
done…it feels like everything is ruined … I can’t do the rest of the things
further ahead …
…but then I tried doing my work along with the work mom gave me…but I don’t
know why I was still feeling everything is ruined already feeling inside of
me all the time till the end of the day…and whatever work I did I
didn’t get any satisfaction out
of anything…I work all day but I feel like I did nothing….have to find a solution…
And the biggest shit of all about me....
I know what to do… I know how to do… but I’m not doing it…and then after some time…I regret….
AND THE CYCLE GOES ON~~~...
... at least I would’ve slapped myself and got myself to work efficiently and
make myself productive…I would’ve been much more productive….sed lifeu…how to beat yourself up to
do work?kdjflkjas
...I have so many ideas in my head and many have potential too( according
to the way I think)… but why is it so hard to start working???
Everyday…same cycle…same routine… I am going nowhere and whenever I
realize this I’m like so
lost…like totally…and trusfrated jkhkjhdjkshf
I did so much all day…but
still i feel like I did nothing.. I started getting frustrated easily and talk back to my elders
and then at night I regret I shouldn’t have said it that way…(like come on I
know I’m aggressive but I’m a good guuurrllllll)...but idk why I have
started loosing control over myself now a days...this is fckn effecting me
mentally …
"...when did i started to become like the person i hate ? when did i
started to change myself into someone i don't wanna be ?... "
I give life advices to many as if I don’t have a huge mental
break down every 2-3 days at night and that too….I HAVE TO BE QUIET COZ THEN PARENTS WOULD GET WORRIED…
I hate this thing the most coz there's a constant urge to
scream this shwit out gfdjgfjfhjgfd
I’ll fckn make a sound proof screaming room in my house if I own a my in
the future…all the readers are free to come and join me there if y’all want
to kjdfslkjfhl
but everything gets piled up when you keep it all in and don’t pour it out…
and then random breakdown … then people get worried what happened so
suddenly?...she smiled a few minutes ago jdfhjhjfadh…but please if you see
someone breaking down in front of you …please try to comfort that person
first…COMFORT IS THE REQUIREMENT THERE AT THAT TIME…don’t bombard with questions on them what happened or
anything…first make calm them down and when u feel they are alright ask them
again if they are fine or not… just to confirm and then ask your
questions….but first comfort them and calm them down….then take your
interview…I know you are
worried but please understand the situation and let them hold their
breathe….A BIG REQUEST 🙏….coz sometimes(personal experience) I’m not even able to breathe or utter
a single word and the person
keeps on asking what happened?bro thank you… you are worried about me but
please don’t bombard questions and give me some time…I’ll speak once I’m able to…let me hold my breathe…let me join my words together and make a
sentence…let me be stable first ill tell you everything…just
wait…jsafadshghjds I feel bad sometimes and get the feelings of guilt that
I’m not able to answer them whem they are so fckn worried about me…sorry
dfhsahkv I don’t like having breakdowns in front anyone and the worst part
is I can’t fckn control it bdjvkjvbkfb
Ok anyways we’ll talk about this later ….back to topic…for now I want to
make my life better... but until I won’t change nothing is gonna change…(people say like this …but is it really like that tho?🤡🙂
Asfhsfj anyways…continue..)coz I don’t know what I want right now to be
exact …but talking about how I’m right now…like the way
I’m living is not the thing I wanted… so this is a journey towards something that would
make me better…(?)…
No one is perfect and everyone has a different perspective and definition
of what perfect means to them…so…this is my journey towards being someone whom I would call
perfect(?)…I don't know how and what will happen next but I hope I become someone
better than I’m right now… coz the person I’m right now is someone I hate
….and want to get rid of this I don’t know will I be able to though…but I want to know how will this
end…
MORE ABOUT ME: I’m an introvert in real life extrovert when I’m typing🤡🙂…hdglkshdghl… with some shit trust issues💔🙂🤡 with almost all the people around me. I prefer being lonely rather
than exposing myself to others due to my past experiences (some mfs are
still on my nerves hfhjsdafjasfhga spreading fake rumours about me and
people fckn believed them coz people thought they are close to me hence
would know more about me…djsgfsdg what did y'all got in return huh?mfs still
on my nerves…if u heard anything about anyone please confirm it from their side itself
before concluding any shit about them…) with people in real life…but when I kept everything inside…I got more frustrated…at one point you
just realize… you can’t just keep it in…then some heroes entered my
lifeuuuu….online friends…
(JUST MY OPINION)I think strangers that I meet online who can relate to the situation would have true
empathy and understand me well without taking advantage of my situation… without judging me… rather than people I have in real life….(now that doesn’t mean I hit on
everyone ok? I trust my intuitions ahslkfhdakjs)
I act like I don’t care and don’t give a damn about almost all the things
but some things…maybe just some small things…affect me so much that people
can’t imagine…skin problems...pimple problems(healthy habits can sove it? I'll try and let yall know what worked and what didn't too)....I am suffering from more problems too that I'll let you all know as I go on...and I need to find solutions...coz some problems are chronic too...(I'm not dying don't get scared jhsgjfdjhs)
Ok…about me is over so….what I’ll do here? On this journey I’ll share all
my experiences and what I learnt from them and all the things that I did
that changed my life through this journey…I won’t stop until I become a
person I really want myself to be…and if anyone or maybe you are going
through the same shit and can relate to them… I hope this could help…what
you can do? I’ll share my problems here and you share yours too in the
comments or maybe dm me on instagram (I’ll keep names anonymous if DMed so
don’t worry about that) and I guess we can come up with solutions together
and then we can help each other.…so hope this thing that I’m starting from
today have a safe landing and don’t crash in the middle….SO LETS GET
STARTED….
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Hope BRIGHTER days come too and
this NIGHT passes by soon….and take care of yourself lovely…meet you on Saturday…
I'm so proud of you 💜 everything will be fine soon! You've potential and i know you will be successful 🥺
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