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(started from September 2020)
The episodes sometimes may contain my own personal experience through depression, anxiety issues that I go through, chronic constipation,
eating disorder, mental breakdowns, some personal confessions and other
things that I experienced throughout the time of documenting this…. I have shared the solutions to the things(things that I found helpful)
I have gone through too so it may help the ones who are going through
it…if you feel uncomfortable or triggered reading any part just skip it… you may not wanna read or hear something coz you may not be going through
it but maybe someone else need these things…at least they’ll know they’re
not alone and if anyone shared something in the
comments please don’t make fun of anyone’s situation if you can’t help or comfort then don’t waste your energy in typing
too just to make fun…I wanna create a secure and healthy environment here where people are here
to help each other.... and be there for each other to support and comfort
whenever needed...THANK YOU
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3 am thoughts
The things I want others got it…the things I want to do... others are doing it already...I know my ideas will work... But when will I start working on them? If I won’t start now…someone else will replace me and do what I wanna do and get what I want…I need to start right now…
The thing I'm thinking today is...
When will I start?
When you know you want it and you know how to make it
work when will you start? What are you even waiting for? Procrastination will only bring me regret and nothing
else...
I have to start… at least I'll know how far I can go and how long I can push
myself... My brain knows I want it...but then why am I not working? Where to
start from is just an excuse ... start it today... if you wanna paint something…
take the brush in your hand at least…
You must be thinking I have made the prologue so long ago...I would've started doing something... Nope …I did follow the routine...for like 3 days...but then my exams started...but it's not like I couldn't have done it... I could have... This is my biggest problem...I don't start easily...and when I do... I don't know why I leave after 2-3 days...and even if I stick to something…I give up when I’m close to achieve it… and then REGRET….
why did I left doing it?
What the fck am I doing with my life?
But the thing is...EVEN IF I'VE FELL
DOWN BY TANGLING MY LEGS BY MYSELF... I WON'T STOP... I'LL START AGAIN.... Yesterday's
me... Maybe she gave up due to her lack of determination...or maybe YESTERDAY'S ME DIDN'T CARE ABOUT THE FUTURE I WANT
FOR ME...
But today's me...SHE DOES...
She doesn’t want to be the person she is right now FOREVER...With the hope that I won't fall again... I'll start again...I forgive the one I was yesterday... I'll start again tomorrow as someone new... AS THE ONE WHO REALLY WANT SOMETHING... As someone who want to get a better life for myself... I know this journey to change my life will be hard as our mind don't adapt to changes as fast and easily as we think...and I think this maybe the first time I've fell in this journey...and I may fall again...I know it...but then I've made up my mind... I'll forgive and start again...
I FORGIVE THE ME I WAS YESTERDAY AND I WILL TRY AGAIN FOR A BETTER ME... FOR TOMORROW...
LET'S GET STARTED....AGAIN...
LETTER TO MY FUTURE SELF …
Dear Ski(THE CEO of my happy CIRCUS),
I know times will get hard and your laziness will try to overcome your
determination and you will start making excuses and avoid working on what you
want… but PLEASE DON’T STOP…PLEASE DON’T LET THAT COVER YOU... PLEASE DON’T LET
ME DOWN…
I know you can do it…. You want so many things so badly, don’t you? And I
know you can push yourself to some shit extent to get them… I know your true
potential honey… just DON’T LET EXCUSES COME OVER YOUR DREAMS… coz I know…you
can do it… PLEASE DON’T GIVE UP…Stick to it… no matter how low you feel… no
matter how disappointed or unworthy your brain makes you think of yourself…no
matter how many times people tell you what the results would be according to
them… DON’T MAKE THEIR THOUGHTS
MANIPULATE YOUR GOALS… COZ YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOWS THE WHOLE PLAN AND
THEY DON’T…so just get up… dress up and work for it…you love to dress up and
start working don’t you dear? And you look good too… when you put up your
favourite make up and smile(I know there’s not much you can do while doing your
make up lol but still)… I swear I feel you can ACHIEVE ANYTHING…and make ANYTHING
WORK…and mark my words sweetie… YOU WILL MAKE IT… I know it coz you are MORE
WISER than I am…MORE STRONGER than I am…and you have MORE POTENTIAL than I have…please
don’t let me down this time…And whenever you feel low…just lie down and close
your eyes and know that I’m always with you… I’ll always be here to give you a
warm hug so that you can start gain… imagine you talking to me… ranting all the
shit you have inside…and when you feel
better open your eyes again and start working again…I believe in you… and I
know you will make it…just keep going<3<3
love you a lot my bubbly pie clownie buddy…<3<3
KEEP GOING COZ YOU ARE ALWAYS AMAZING<3<3
Yours lovingly,
Ski(Clown in the PAST)
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