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(started from September 2020)
The episodes sometimes may contain my own personal experience through depression, anxiety issues that I go through, chronic constipation,
eating disorder, mental breakdowns, some personal confessions and
other things that I experienced throughout the time of documenting
this…. I have shared the solutions to the things(things that I found
helpful) I have gone through too so it may help the ones who are
going through it…if you feel uncomfortable or triggered reading any part just skip it… you may not wanna read or hear something coz you may not be going
through it but maybe someone else need these things…at least they’ll
know they’re not alone and if anyone shared something
in the comments please don’t make fun of anyone’s situation if you can’t help or comfort then don’t waste your energy in
typing too just to make fun…I wanna create a secure and healthy environment here where people are
here to help each other.... and be there for each other to support and
comfort whenever needed...THANK YOU
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Previously on ski diaries… (ep2.1)
LET'S GET STARTED....AGAIN...
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Episode 03 WOULD DO IT MY WAY
Me:all you do is annoy others and watch top 10 anime betrayals on
YouTube
My brother: and that happens with you every day ...🤷♂️🤡
Me:you didn't had to come at me like that xhxhxhd
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The only supporter you need to get successful is
YOU...
Don't wait
for anyone to help
you out coz everyone is busy
within themselves too...or maybe they are waiting
for someone else to help
them out too...
Just keep one thing in mind...you may have many people around you but
the only one who is truly happy with you being successful and happy and
DOESN’T get anything
against you is YOU yourself...So do it for yourself and no one else...
NO ONE will come and push you
or even tell you to do the things you wanna do
you need to push yourself and get the things done
STOP WAITING AND START WORKING YOU CAN THINK A WAY OUT OF THIS…
You can't see the
moon
growing into a
full moon
without having a
new moon
night ...even if you are in dark ...and stumbling upon things and
falling down...get up again...
The scars you make today will be the mark of your pride tomorrow… So just don't stop... the sunrise is just few moments ahead… just
don’t stop…
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Thinking all these things🙂 I pushed myself to my extreme limits… and I kept on telling myself thinking that I am doing well…but actually deep down I felt like I am degrading…coz it was affecting me mentally…💔🙂
I only focused on my physical health...saw things that were healthy and just started doing them without thinking about my mental stress levels📊📈…SOMEONE🤵does 2 jobs👩💻👨🔬⚒… does workout🏋️♀️💪 daily…cooks🍚🍜🍣🥘 well…studies📚📖 well… hang out with friends🙋♀️🙋♂️🤳🙌… go for outing🤹♀️💃🤸♂️🤸♀️🚴♀️...plays some instrument🎸🎻🎺🎹… do many other stuffs doesn’t mean you can do it too… do many other stuffs doesn’t mean you can do it too…ok even you may have hobbies to do things like that...but it may turn out you may or may not be able to be the same🤷♀️… and that too at their pace…like all together...💔🙂(i am not discouraging... slowly... taking steps one by one ...yeah maybe one day you will be able to do everything but at once...it's difficult)
Everyone is different and so are you honey...
We remember "Everyone is different" but forget the "so are you" part …🥺
Every one works at a different pace…someone did it at once doesn’t mean you must do it too(lines by KIM SEOKJIN during dear batch of 2020 if i am not wrong)
(did I again just pushed myself to become someone I am not?🙂😶HELPKDGJJSSJFDSGL)…
Besides this… I never really thought about being satisfied mentally too when I was making my routine timetable… I did the things I thought would be better for me…but even after everything..after trying to cover everything at once lmao🤡… am I satisfied by whatever I did in the past weeks?
To be honest… I don’t know how I’m actually feeling right now💔🙂🤡… when I look back... it all feels like I was just pretending (?)… Like… Doing things… pretending it's going well and I'm getting better but was it really like that? Or I'm just acting like I'm getting better? Pretending to be fine when I was actually not?
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Instead of being the actor….I'll try to be the director for
once...let's see how it turns out to be…
From now on...I won't follow a fixed time table (which I made after watching 10 youtube videos lol…🤡) coz it made me feel like a robot🤖🤖… but would do things that have my happiness attached to it...😊🤸♀️🤗
I have the things I want listed…I know what is my priority…what I
want…I know how to get it…now the most difficult step for me…. to get
started… again… with a proper mindset…
to focus on myself not only physically but mentally too….
You may not see it when i am changing myself …
You may not see me develop from outside... coz I’m developing from inside…
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(present thoughts while I read my past state of mind)
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO gfu6dysfd7f6gjiyhkuojiksddffgrgtuhjyujsd5f76g7hazesxrdctfvygbuhnj🤯😱😱😵
DON’T DO THAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTT DUMBOOOOOOOO🤯😤😵😵😵zsesxdrcftvgybhunj
YOU WILL SUFFER BROOOOOOOOOO😤🥴🤬🤡💀 NOOOOOOOOOOOOO YOU WERE DOING GREAT shfdslkjfhfhljahfdlk
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I really don’t understand if I am doing well or not until someone tells me🥺🤡💔🙂… HENCE I WANNA CLONE MYSELF SO I CAN SLAP ME🤬🤡 WHENEVER I MAKE SOME SHIT DECISION LIKE THIS 🤬🤡AND WHEN I DO GOOD I CAN CHEER MYSELF UP AND TELL ME BRO KEEP GOING🙌🤸♀️🤗💜 YOU ARE DOING GREAT🤗💜helpllplljgdjhgljkahldjkkljfhklsg
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…BUT… WHAT IS THE HAPPINESS THAT I AM CALLING RIGHT NOW ACTUALLY?🤔💭 like is it really my HAPPINESS?🤔💭 or is it just FEW SECONDS OF PLEASURE 🤔💭I’M CRAVING FOR? CAN THE THINGS YOU CALL HAPPY HARM YOU?🥺 OR YOU JUST FEEL LIKE YOU ARE HAPPY BUT YOU ARE ACTUALLY NOT?…COZ IT’S ACTUALLY HARMING YOU INSIDE…💔🙂
YOU WON’T SEE THAT NOW BUT YOU WILL LATER…and I will too💔🙂🤡…I will find out in the next episode..how i ruined myself thinking about all this and mixing up everything💔🙂🤡…like the way I mixed up happiness with mere few seconds of pleasure will have their results… of course they will…But I didn’t know it’ll be this bad…💔🙂🤡
One decision can make you suffer a LOT… everything is a choice until you make up your mind to turn it into a decision...DON'T BE A CLOWN LIKE ME💔🙂🤡… PLEASE THINK THOROUGHLY BEFORE MAKING ANY CHOICE YOUR DECISION…COZ ITS TOTALLY UP TO YOU WHETHER TO DO IT OR NOT
WHAT CAN HELP?
Make a tree chart🌴🌲📊 or a flow diagram📊 in your head of what can be the consequences if you made some decision… at least you will have a clear idea of what you can actually face and how bad it can get…like think of the worst thing possible in order to be on the safer side…
It shouldn’t be like… your craving for
PLEASURE
(that would last for maybe few seconds but you think its happiness) ends
you up
SUFFERING💔🙂🤡
DON’T EXCHANGE YOUR FOREVER HAPPY FUTURE WITH
FEW SECONDS OF PLEASURE…LEARN THE DIFFERENCE…
it shouldn't go like you
keep running towards being happy...but you won't realize… you actually
started suffering…
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solve it together…💜✨
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