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(started from September 2020)
The episodes sometimes may contain my own personal experience through depression, anxiety issues that I go through, chronic constipation,
eating disorder, mental breakdowns, some personal confessions and other
things that I experienced throughout the time of documenting this…. I have shared the solutions to the things(things that I found helpful)
I have gone through too so it may help the ones who are going through
it…if you feel uncomfortable or triggered reading any part just skip it… you may not wanna read or hear something coz you may not be going through
it but maybe someone else need these things…at least they’ll know they’re
not alone and if anyone shared something in the
comments please don’t make fun of anyone’s situation if you can’t help or comfort then don’t waste your energy in typing
too just to make fun…I wanna create a secure and healthy environment here where people are here
to help each other.... and be there for each other to support and comfort
whenever needed...THANK YOU
P.S. ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE AND SO THIS MAY HAVE GRAMMATICAL ERRORS… BUT PLEASE UNDERTAND AND BEAR WITH ME…LOL🤡🙏
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Previously on ski diaries… (ep2.1)
Chalo shuruwat se shuru kare....fir se...
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Episode 03 WOULD DO IT MY WAY
Me:*yelling*sabko bas pareshaan kar rakha hai.... aur youtube pr
top 10 anime betrayals dekhte
ho bas aur kuch nhi karna tumhe💀😒🤷♀️
My brother: jo tere sath roz hota hai ...🤷♂️🤡
Me:you didn't had to come at me like that
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The only supporter you need to get successful is
YOU...
Don't wait
for anyone to help
you out coz everyone is busy
within themselves too...or maybe they are waiting for someone else to help
them out too...
Just keep one thing in mind...you may have many people around you but the
only one who is truly happy with you being successful and happy and
DOESN’T get anything against
you is YOU yourself...So do it for yourself and no one else...
NO ONE will come and push you
or even tell you to do the things you wanna do
you need to push yourself and get the things done
STOP WAITING AND START WORKING YOU CAN THINK A WAY OUT OF THIS…
You can't see the
moon
growing into a
full moon
without having a
new moon
night ...even if you are in dark ...and stumbling upon things and falling
down...get up again...
The scars you make today will be the mark of your pride tomorrow… So just don't stop... the sunrise is just few moments ahead… just don’t
stop…
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Ye sab sochte huye🙂 I pushed myself to my extreme limits… aur mai khudko bolte rhti thi k mai sahi hi jaa rahi hu…but deep down I literally felt like I am degrading…coz it was affecting me mentally…💔🙂
I only focused on my physical health...jo chize aisi lagi k haa bhai its good for health wo chize karna shuru kar diya… without thinking about my mental stress levels📊📈…KOI INSAAN🤵 agar 2 jobs kar leta hai👩💻👨🔬⚒… does workout🏋️♀️💪 daily…cooks🍚🍜🍣🥘 well…studies📚📖 well… hang out with friends🙋♀️🙋♂️🤳🙌… go for outing🤹♀️💃🤸♂️🤸♀️🚴♀️…plays some instrument🎸🎻🎺🎹… do many other stuffs doesn’t mean you can do it too…ok tumhe bhi ye saari chize karne ka shauq hai but it may turn out you may or may not be able to be the same🤷♀️… and that too at their pace…💔🙂(i am not discouraging... slowly... taking steps one by one ...yeah maybe one day you will be able to do everything but at once...it's difficult)
Everyone is different and so are you honey...
Hume "Everyone is different" yaad hota hai but "so are you" wala part...we tend to forget …🥺
Every one works at a different pace…kisi ne ekhi baar me karliya iska matlab ye nhi k tum bhi ek hi baar me kar lo(lines by KIM SEOKJIN during dear batch of 2020 if i am not wrong)
(did I again just pushed myself to become someone I am
not?🙂😶HELPKDGJJSSJFDSGL)…
Besides this… I never really thought about being satisfied mentally too when I was making my routine timetable…mai wo saari chize karne lagi jo muje laga are better for me…lekin ye saari chize karne k baad…after trying to cover everything at once lmao🤡…The important question of all the things going on right now... kya mai satisfied huyi maine jo bhi kiya itne hafto se?
To be honest… muje kya feel horaha hai nhi samaj rha hai 💔🙂🤡…like when I look back.... it all feels like I was just pretending (?)… Like… Doing things… pretending it's going well and I'm getting better but was it really like that? Or I'm just acting like I'm getting better? Pretending to be fine when I was actually not?
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Instead of being the actor….I'll try to be the director for once...dekhte hai kya hota hai…👀
Ab se...mai koi bhi fixed timetable ya routine follow nhi karungi…(which I made after watching
10 youtube videos lol…🤡) coz
it made me feel like a robot🤖🤖… but wo chize karungi jisse muje
Jo bhi chize muje chahiye wo muje pata hai…I know what are my
priorities👀…muje kya chahiye…aur wo muje kaise milega…now the most
difficult step for me…. to get started… again… with a proper mindset…
to focus on myself not only physically but mentally too….😊😌
You may not see it when i am changing myself …
You may not see me develop from outside... coz I’m developing from inside…
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(present thoughts while I read my past state of mind)
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO gfu6dysfd7f6gjiyhkuojiksddffgrgtuhjyujsd5f76g7hazesxrdctfvygbuhnj🤯😱😱😵
AEEEE PAGAL AURAAATTTTTTT ajkjghaurguhnjvln DON’T DO THAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTT🤯😤😵😵😵zsesxdrcftvgybhunj
TU KHUSH HAI jhdsjghkajhdaaljhfj OYE CHAMAN😤🥴🤬🤡💀 aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh YOU WILL SUFFER BROOOOOOOOOO NOOOOOOOOOOOOO YOU WERE DOING GREAT jfhjhgalhglkj HEEELLLLPPPPPPPPP
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I really don’t understand whether I am doing well or not until someone tells me🥺🤡💔🙂… ISI LIYE MUJE APNA CLNE BANANA HAI TAAKI AISE WAHIYAT DECISIONS LENE SE PEHLE KHUDKO EK CHATAAAAAAAAAK SE KAAN K NICHE BAJA DU🤬🤡 AUR BOLU CHUP CHAAP KEEP GOING AND WHEN I DO GOOD I CAN CHEER ME UP 🙌🤸♀️🤗💜AND TELL ME BRO KEEP GOING YOU ARE DOING GREAT🤗💜ljgdjhgljkahldjkkljfhklsg
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…BUT… WHAT IS THE HAPPINESS THAT I AM CALLING RIGHT NOW ACTUALLY?🤔💭 like kya ye sahi me meri HAPPINESS hai?🤔💭or is it just FEW SECONDS OF PLEASURE 🤔I’M CRAVING FOR? CAN THE THINGS YOU CALL HAPPY HARM YOU?🥺 OR YOU JUST FEEL LIKE YOU ARE HAPPY BUT YOU ARE ACTUALLY NOT?…COZ IT’S ACTUALLY HARMING YOU INSIDE…💔🙂
YOU WON’T SEE THAT NOW BUT YOU WILL LATER… and I will too💔🙂🤡…agle episode me maloom padega maine khudki kaise ekdum achese waat laga di usdin ye sab soch ke💔🙂🤡…the way I mixed up happiness with mere few seconds of pleasure will have their results… of course they will…But I didn’t know it’ll be this bad💔🙂🤡…
One decision can make you suffer a LOT… everything is a choice until you make up your mind to turn it into a decision... DON'T BE A CLOWN LIKE ME💔🙂🤡… PLEASE THINK THOROUGHLY BEFORE MAKING ANY CHOICE YOUR DECISION…COZ ITS TOTALLY UP TO YOU WHETHER TO DO IT OR NOT
WHAT CAN HELP?
Make a
tree chart 🌴🌲📊 or a flow diagram📊 in your head of what can be the
consequences if you made some decision… at least you will have a clear idea
of what you can actually face and how
bad
it can get…like think of the
worst thing possible
in order to be on the safer side…
It shouldn’t be like… your craving for
PLEASURE
(that would last for maybe few seconds but you think its happiness) ends you
up
SUFFERING
DON’T EXCHANGE YOUR FOREVER HAPPY FUTURE WITH
FEW SECONDS OF PLEASURE…LEARN THE DIFFERENCE…
aisa na ho k khushi dhundhte
dhundhte…unki taraf bhaagte bhaagte… you start suffering…
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Comments me batao muje how you are feeling or about anything you wanna share with me…you can dm me on instagram too…I will try to answer everyone before I go to sleep every day… coz by being there for each other may solve many problems…we can solve it together💜✨
You are precious✨...you are strong…✨💜BORAHAE…💜✨
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