Ski diaries ; Episode 02 CUTTING OF TOXICITY ( ENGLISH )

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CUTTING OFF TOXICITY (OUTSIDE)

     Whenever something bad happens I try to understand the matter from other side as well… but when I don’t know what’s the matter how will I know what got you in the first place? And then I am the one guilty? OK GENIUS *CLAPS* WOW…

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I try to understand the situation and try to understand them...i hear their part of the story too…and then I ask them straight away why did you do that if I am offended or hurted by anything they did… but the thing you do to others is not necessarily the thing you will get back …

They don't know what you are going through they don't wanna understand they don't wanna know at all... the only thing they do is... RUNNING INTO RANDOM CONCLUSIONS BY THEMSELVES WITHOUT KNOWING THE WHOLE THING…

She did this to me… she's mean…she’s selfish… she's this… she’s that...

        Do you know how she is at that time?do you know what was her mental and physical state at that time? Do you know what's going on in her head at that time? DID YOU ASK WHY HE/SHE/THEY DID THAT BEFORE JUMPING ON RANDOM CONCLUSIONS IN YOUR HEAD? Have I ever done that before? Do I seem to be someone who would do something like that purposely?

        Ask these questions first and still if you have a grudge against me ask me directly ffs… clear the misunderstanding… ask whatever you want… I’ll answer… I won’t feel bad…but I’ll feel happy tat you asked me why I did that rather than beliving some shit third person or running into wrong conclusions by yourself… ask me why did I do that rather than concluding yourselves why would have I done that...even if it’s personal ask me… If I feel comfortable to answer, I’ll ANSWER …if I’m not comfortable, I’ll tell you politely…MOST OF THE TIME EVEN IF I’M NOT COMFORTABLE I DO ANSWER IF THE PERSON IS SOMEONE CLOSE TO ME…

    Asking won’t make relationships bad… but stronger…

AND MAY PROBABLY SAVE THE BOND BEFORE IT BREAKS…

CONSIDERING AND UNDERSTANDING each other becomes better when you ask it and talk straight away…and then some third person says if he/she/they  did that to me i wouldn't have tolerated i would have done this or that...like bro wtf?...and then it gets messed up even more... why are you even talking to that person when you can talk to me directly? it'll work better right ?

YOU WON’T KNOW ACCURATELY ABOUT ME FROM SOMEONE OTHER THAN ME…

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         I really don’t like to break relations straight away but when you’ll make me feel like shit suddenly without explaining me what’s the matter even if for like 10 sec even when I’m asking wtf happened… I’ll fckn block you from my life…I don’t know what is this inside me that I have started doing so right now… may be I understood my self-worth? or I don’t know…BUT IF YOU WILL MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT WITHOUT EXPLAINING ME ANYTHING OR HEARING MY PART OF STORY….. I’M DONE… LOL… BYE… YOU DON’T CARE I DON’T CARE EITHER~~

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        If you have anything against me or if anything I did or said hurt you ….you can straight away ask me why did I do that? Or  what happened exactly… I won't feel bad... Or else you are free to leave... if you don't care about that “WHY”... and don't wanna ask...you can leave… I won't even be sorry for anything... it's your decision it’s your life anyway….I.M.SO.FCKN.DONE.R.N.

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        AND AS PER I KNOW MYSELF...I AM A PEACE LOVING PATIENT PERSON BUT IF YOU INVADE, CROSS THE BAR AND MAKE A MESS IN MY SPACE FOR NO REASON… I WILL KICK YOU OUT...  ALSO… IF YOU SPIT ON ME I WILL SPIT BACK TWICE AND I SWEAR YOU DON’T WANNA SEE THAT SIDE OF ME… Coz I May Not Be Good In Expressing My Love In Words But I Am A Pro In Expressing My Anger In Words… AND IT WILL HURT… LIKE EVEN I DON’T KNOW HOW FAR I’LL GO… BUT KNOW THAT I WON’T EVEN BE SORRY LATER AND I AIN’T EVER COMING BACK…I HAVE MY BARS SET…AND WHATS DONE IS DONE….

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People know the truth but still act like they don’t know shit just to make you look guilty in front of others?... I’m done bro…*chops off another shit*

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I.NEED.PEACE.

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You are precious✨...you are strong…✨💜BORAHAE…💜✨

 

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