Ski diaries ; Episode 02 CUTTING OF TOXICITY ( HINDI )

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The episodes sometimes may contain my own personal experience through depression, anxiety issues that I go through, chronic constipation, eating disorder, mental breakdowns, some personal confessions and other things that I experienced throughout the time of documenting this…. I have shared the solutions to the things(things that I found helpful)  I have gone through too so it may help the ones who are going through it…if you feel uncomfortable or triggered reading any part just skip it… you may not wanna read or hear something coz you may not be going through it but maybe someone else need these things…at least they’ll know they’re not alone and if anyone shared something in the comments please don’t make fun of anyone’s situation if you can’t help or comfort then don’t waste your energy in typing too just to make fun…I wanna create a secure and healthy environment here where people are here to help each other.... and be there for each other to support and comfort whenever needed...THANK YOU

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CUTTING OFF TOXICITY (OUTSIDE)

 

         Jab bhi kabhi koi matter hota hai…I try to understand the other side of the story too… lekin agar muje pata hi nahi hai k kya hua to mujhe sapna ayega kya k what got you against me like this? And then I am the one guilty? OK GENIUS *CLAPS* WOW…

 

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        Mai situation samajne ki koshish karti hu aur ye direct kabhi nhi sochti hu k kisine wo chiz q ki hogi? uski taraf ki bhi story puchti hu pehle and then I ask them straight away k aisa q kiya if something offended or hurted me…but the thing you do to others is not necessarily the thing you will get back …

They don't know what you are going through they don't wanna understand…like they don't wanna know at all... the only thing they do is... APNE HISAAB SE KUCH B KAHANI BANALO BINA KUCH B JAANE K ASAL ME HUA KYA THA…

She did this to me… she's mean…she’s selfish… she's this… she’s that...

        Kya tumhe pata hai wo kis halat me thi us waqt?uska mental and physical state kaisa tha? Do you know uske dimaag me us waqt kya kya chal raha tha? Kya Tumne Use Pucha K Usne Aisa Q Kiya Uske Bare Me Ulta Siddha Sochne Se Pehle? Kya maine aisi chiz pehle kabhi ki hai? Tumhe lagta hai k mai aisa janbojh ke karungi?

        Ye saare sawal pehle apne aap se pucho aur fir bhi kuch bach jaye to mujh se directly baat karo aur pucho ffs… misunderstanding clear karo… job hi puchna hai pucho… I’ll answer… muje bura nhi lagega…at least I will feel k isne kisi aur ki baat par vishwas nhi kiya ya khudse koi galat fehmi nhi rakhi balki mujhse direct samne se pucha k masla kya hai … pucho mujhse k maine aisa q kiya rather than running into wrong conclusions...even if it’s personal pucho… If I feel comfortable to answer, I’ll ANSWER …if I’m not comfortable, I’ll tell you politely…MOST OF THE TIME AGAR MAI COMFORTABLE NAHI BHI HOTI HU TAB BHI I DO ANSWER IF THE PERSON IS SOMEONE CLOSE TO ME…

        PUCHNE SE YA BAAT KARNE SERELATIONS KARAAB NAHI HOTE… BALKI STRONG HOTE HAI…

AND IT MAY PROBABLY SAVE THE BOND BEFORE IT BREAKS…

        Ek dusre ko samajna and unki soch ko dhyan me rakhna asaan tab hota hai jab aap ek dusre se khul kar baat karo aur koi baat par khudke conclusions draw na karo…and then koi teesra insaan bolega agar mere sath aisa kiya hota usne to mai to aisa kar deta/deti... bro wtf? aur fir aur hi aag lag jaati hai and then its all messed up even more... but like tum us teesre se baat hi q kar rahe ho jab tum mujhse directly baat kar sakte ho?wo zyada behtar hoga right?

 

YOU WON’T KNOW ACCURATELY ABOUT ME FROM SOMEONE OTHER THAN ME…

 

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         Muje koi b rishta aise hi todne acha nhi lagta lekin if you made me feel like shit bina bataye k kya matter hai even if for like 10 sec mere puchne k bawajood …I’ll fckn block you from my life…I don’t know muje achanak kya ho gaya hai… may be I understood my self-worth? or muje nhi pata…BUT IF YOU WILL MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT BINA APNI BAAT BATAYE YA MERI TARAF KI STORY SUNE… I’M DONE… LOL… BYE…TUMHE FARK NAHI PADTA ? MUJE GHANTA PADTA HAI …

 

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        Agar tumhe meri koi bhi baat samaj nhi aa rahi hai ya meri kisi bhi baat ka bura laga  ho ya kuch bhi mere bare me galat laga ho mujhse pucho k aisa q kiya?ya aisa q hai?… muje us  baat ka bura nahi lagega... aur agar nahi janna hai then you are free to leave... if you don't care about that “WHY”... and don't wanna ask...you can leave… I won't even be sorry for anything... tumhari life tumhara decision. And I.M.SO.FCKN.DONE.R.N.

 

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        AND AS PER I KNOW MYSELF...I AM A PEACE LOVING PATIENT PERSON LEKIN AGAR MERA PEACE KHARAAB KAROGE AND LIMIT CROSS KAROGE AND MAKE A MESS IN MY SPACE FOR NO REASON… I WILL KICK YOU OUT...  ALSO… IF YOU SPIT ON ME I WILL SPIT BACK TWICE AND I SWEAR YOU DON’T WANNA SEE THAT SIDE OF ME… Coz I May Not Be Good In Expressing My Love In Words But I Am A Pro In Expressing My Anger In Words… AND FIR HURT HOGA…BAHUT HOGA… COZ EVEN I DON’T KNOW HOW FAR I’LL GO… BUT KNOW THAT I WON’T BE SORRY LATER AND I AIN’T EVER COMING BACK…I HAVE MY BARS SET…AND WHATS DONE IS DONE….

 

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LOGO ko asliyat aur sach pata hote huye they act like unko kuch b nahi pata taaki tum baaki sabke saamne guilty dikho? I’m done bro…*chops off another shit*

 

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I.NEED.PEACE.

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Comments me batao muje how you are feeling or about anything you wanna share with me…you can dm me on instagram too…I will try to answer everyone before I go to sleep every day… coz by being there for each other may solve many problems…we can solve it together💜✨

You are precious✨...you are strong…✨💜BORAHAE…💜✨

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